The few exciting/new things in my life: Dave wrote to me and told me he had a job offer! That's great news! The only other new thing to happen this week: Ryan and I finalized our plans to meet. It's exciting, but unfortunately, both things happened yesterday.

Why do I say unfortunately, you may ask. I'll tell you why. I have had absolutely nothing interesting happen all week long, and when one thing finally does, another pops up the same day. I just wish fun things could happen every few days rather than all on one day. So, in comparison, today has been moot.

I have done some more job searching. The most common job that people have posted online seems to be "night auditor." Ok... well, the most common job that I'm qualified to do anyways. So... I must take back my words of saying that night auditor is a stupid job, because I may be taking one soon. Who knows?!

Tomorrow I have plans to go grocery shopping. How pathetic has my life gotten that I'm excited to go grocery shopping... with my mom?! I'm not saying that I don't like spending time with my mom, but it's just if I ever want to go anywhere now, I have to ask someone... and I hate having to plan things like this.

I remember last year, at college, I would just pick up and go whenever I felt like it. Well, almost whenever. When I wasn't in the computer lab... hehe. I just miss that freedom. It really sucks that I don't have any friends in the area, so I can't even bum a ride from them. Even if I did, I'd be asking them to pay for stuff if I did go out, so I guess it's for the better that I don't have friends close by.

Not better for my confidence, but better financially. I hate this burden. I know, I know. I keep changing topics, but I just feel like a filtered flow session right now. I say filtered, because the editor in me (not literally, you sickos!) is still using punctuation and grammar techniques, but I'm just letting whatever I'm thinking come out.

So... I again am left with my new years resolution hanging over me, telling me to get my butt in gear. I just can't seem to get the ball rolling. I look up jobs, I moan and whine about how I'm not qualified, and then I stop looking because I get discouraged. I just wish I had some creditals, but that's not going to happen anytime soon. So I should just stop whining and get some evil job that I hate, just so I can report to all the agencies that I have some meaningless job so they can take away my "benefits" and I'm forced to never get out of debt and never return to college and live a horrible, lonely, sheltered life bitter at the rest of the world because they made something of themselves, when I had the best opportunities and I blew it all!!!

Or... then again... maybe not.

Or, maybe, just maybe I should shut the fuck up and do something about it. That might work. It probably won't make me any happier, but then I'll have something new to complain about!

So, maybe everyone that reads will get a fill of something new to listen to me gripe about. Ha!

Carisa