Notation for the following:
   Before = anything ever disturbed her life (also known as before the end of the summer of 2000).
   After = everything that altered Sandy after...

• the death of her grandfather
  
• the inheritance of his stocks
  
• having her family turn their backs on her
  
• quiting college and moving away from MT
  
• finding Sammy with another woman (who looked like her)
  
• breaking up with Sammy and being heartbroken
  
• waiting for Mike to bring Mikey one week later
  
• the arrival of a dead Mikey
  
• not hearing from Devon or Dooped for weeks
  
• getting to close to Mike (whom she doesn't trust)
  
• still living with her rapist, Mike
  
• causing her to lose ALL self-confidence
  

Birth:

Wisconsin

Grew up Before:

With mother, father, younger sister, Rebecca (by 2 years, who is also her best friend).

Has had same cats as Carisa -- Kiki was her childhood cat. Googie was her adolescent cat (whom is greatly cherished). Mikey was her college cat (whom she is still greiving).

Currently lives: After

With Mike. No one else comes in contact with her unless it's a grocery bagger or someone in a service position job.

Religion Before:

Christian, I think Methodist...but does it really matter? They are all the same. She had gone to church every Sunday of her life until things starting going downhill for her. She was always praying to Jesus and telling God that she loves him. She loves being in love, and God is one of her loves.

Religion After:

Is there a god? She doesn't think that God would have let this happen to her, so therefore God has either never been there or doesn't think she is worthy of happiness any longer. She hates Him now.

Group of Friends Before:

Has some from High School still, but mostly now just college friends and people that she ICQs.

Group of Friends After:

Devon has seemed to forgotten about her, so she doesn't talk to him unless he goes out of his way to talk to her. Dooped still tries, but doesn't like talking to her when she's really depressed. So she doesn't keep in contact with anyone else. She doesn't want to communicate to others about what is wrong in her life, so she is wallowing (sp?) in her misery alone. The way she wants it.

Attitude in life Before:

Happy memories from childhood, very popular in HS, enjoys life and has others around her enjoy it as well. She is currently depressed beyond all her possible beliefs. She is doubting God and thinking the world is set to curse her. (Basically a 180 after she had 3 major bad things happen to her).

Attitude in life After:

The world is here to abuse her. She is being abused because she was happy for so long, and now she is paying for it. The world is dark and she is no longer a light.

Lifestyle Before:

Was heterosexual until Summer of 1999 (when she started dating Sammy).

Lifestyle After:

Is currently bi-sexual, and extremely confused since the break-up. She doesn't trust anyone sexually anymore and believes that she is meant to be punished because she screwed up somewhere along the line. So she thinks that all of her break-ups were her fault because she did something wrong, but in reality (well, as close to reality can be for a character in my head), she was always the victim.

College -- Before:

3 years at University of Montana-Missoula. Majoring in Photography with areas of emphasis in Art and Film, until she quite 3 weeks into Fall 2000 semester.

Life After College:

Lost desire to study or learn anything new. She doesn't care about much in her life anymore. She doesn't want to go out and talk to anyone. She keeps to herself and balls up on her bed most of the time. Crying and crying. The world is against her and she doesn't think that she deserved it. She says, "What horrible thing did I ever do to deserve all this hate?"

If you think I have missed a major area of discussion, please email me with another topic that I need to blab about. I'll get around to it, just like how I finished this page on 10-21-00! :-) hehehe

Carisa