She didn't want to even try to cheer up and Devon was trying to get her to speak positive words. She mentioned that there was nothing worth living for anymore. Get this!!!! His response was....... (I'm trying to build up the suspense here!)...... (Is it working?)..... He responded: "I'm here." I was laughing my ass off and Sandy just started to cry doubting that he was really going to be there for her. She was feeling so abandoned and alone and the best he could say was that HE was the reason she should stay alive. Ha Ha Ha. He's getting more and more pathetic, and I like having that control.

As the convo wore on, less and less things were mentioned (or rather, things were spanned further and further apart). Sandy had stopped crying and he automatically took that as she was better and happy. HA HA! Fat chance! For christ's sake; First her grandfather dies, second her family starts to betray her and banish her from the family, third she finds her girlfriend in bed with another woman, and most recently she has found out her sole kitty is dead.

By the end of the conversation, Sandy was done crying. Because she couldn't shed anymore tears from all the liquid pouring forth earlier. Devon thought that he might have a chance to get her sexually aroused. His attempt was lame, with asking about pornos and wondering if she needed to shower. He was being very stupid about the approach and she tried to let him know as gently as possible.

For a major sidenote: Josh (real person) was listening in on the entire conversation and the two of us were laughing our asses off about his lame attempts. It was really hard to not laugh out loud.

Back to the story: Sandy knew even before then that he was going to try something like that and she was under control by me to not have any sexual thoughts in her head. (Do you know how fucking tough that was to not think about sex when I've been going so DAMN long without it?) Needless to say, she didn't even mention the word let alone anything that might resemble sexual intention.

Devon still didn't see that as a problem and proceeded to TRY to seduce her. She was starting to cry again because that's the only way I could get him to listen tonight. It was horrible. I was under his control for awhile there. I don't like that because he doesn't even know me.

Another sidenote: Josh came up with the suggestion of him "accidentally" showing up at my door while I am on the phone with Devon. I'll say something to the effect of: "How the fuck are ya?" Josh will ask where I have my "(insert name here)" porno. I will answer in my normal voice (and make sure not to cover the mouth piece): "You know that my collection is on the top shelf in my closet. My porno is your porno." I know is sounds kinda cheesy but maybe Devon will suspect that there is something strange going on.

Back to the story, wrapping it up, I promise: The quick summary here is that Devon wants to "be there" for Sandy because he thinks he stands a chance with her. He has fallen into a set routine of calling her dear and honey and telling her he loves her. She says she feels his love and can't say she has it back for him. She doesn't trust him anymore when he started whacking off just after she stopped crying. Then he actually thought she was wet. Where the HELL was he the whole time they were talking/her crying? She is going to slowly fade from calling him and start to get into a grave depression that may cause her to take her life.

Let me know what route you would take if you were in Sandy's position:
a) lose all hope and be focused only on the negative in life (everything)
b) start speaking crazy thoughts about metaphors of death
c) pretend nothing has happened and remain totally dispondent
d) tell him she is giving all her money to charity because she doesn't deserve anything anymore
e) she gets committed to a mental hospital and spends the rest of her life drowling and shitting her pants
f) another thing I haven't thought of

Carisa