At Timberlodge, I got the steak and lobster dish. The steak was really good, but the lobster wasn't the greatest. It still tasted like lobster, but something was just off a bit... not as good as Red Lobster lobster. But, Timberlodge is a steak house, I don't expect the lobster to be their specialty.
Before the food arrived, I opened my card from Grandma (mom's mom). It was weird... I don't mean to be greedy, but there was no money in the card. I found that kinda shocking, but then again, I'm 23 now. I guess I'm kinda past the age of birthday money, right?
After dinner, I opened the cards that mom and dad had gotten me. Dad's card was a humorous one, like usual. Very cute. Then Mom's card was on the funny side, but cuter than funny. A little squirrel on the cover... I'm sure she picked it out because of Tierna (and the squirrel was Tierna's color).
Before opening Mom's card, I felt that it was thick. I was expecting money or a little note attached to some money. But when I opened it, I realized it was something better than money... well, more thoughtful at the very least. I got 4 coupons from Mom: one to teach me to knit (or re-teach), one to take me out to eat, one to take me to a movie, and the last one-- a shopping spree! I had made a suggestion to Mom quite a bit ago that I would like a shopping spree, and she could set the limit. So, I was really happy to see that coupon!
I finally got something that's practical A N D fun! I had been complaining about getting practical gifts after x-mas. That was a disappointing holiday, if you didn't read my entries on that already. I'm just sick of getting practical gifts. I hate that!
Maybe I should just take all practical gifts off any wish-lists I ever send out. I think people see the practical gifts and say, "oh.. she'd like this" or "I know she's been needing this." In all reality, I want FUN gifts... ya know, the ones that you open and they make you smile.
My life is so boring, and lacks entertainment so often that when I get a practical gift, it's like someone training their puppy not to pee on the carpet by rubbing their face in it. It's just a very un-cool feeling. One that screams to me: You don't have a job, therefore other people have to buy you everyday things.
It's not to say that I don't appreciate the gift, I just wish it wasn't for an anticipated event (like a birthday or x-mas). I can understand practical gifts for wedding presents or house-warmings, but when the fun is taken out of "fun holidays," what do you have to look forward to?
I guess the point I'm trying to make is, although my birthday was better than x-mas, I still feel that it wasn't something to celebrate. It was a waste of a celebratory day. A holiday, a gift holiday should be something to look forward to, to be hopeful, and wishful and happy. But instead this birthday was another let-down (well, not completely, but now that I'm on this depressive kick, it's not gonna end happy).
Last year, my birthday was spent moving my furniture into my apartment. Granted, I was extremely grateful for the help, it just seemed like it was a cop out to not have to get me gifts other than house-warming gifts. The year before that, I spent it all alone... in my dorm room while everyone else was still on Spring Break. I got a practical gift, and realized it was something I needed, but wasn't something I was excited to receive as a birthday gift.
I really should try doing something nice tonight... but what? I don't have transportation, nor money. I don't have anything "new" to play with or entertain me. I just feel like today ended just the same as every other boring, insignificant day has ended for me in the past year.
I just wish I had something hopeful to look forward to... oh wait! I actually do have good news... perhaps I should focus on that for some time being. I found out that my interview with Humana went really well, and they are going to hire me, if they can hire anyone new.
That means that I'm going to have a job, if and only if, Humana can get a training session to start up. So, I guess I know I can pass an interview, provided the job pulls through. That's an upbeat thought.
In fact, I better end this entry on that note.
Carisa